It's been a while since I last blogged and to be honest, it feels awesome to be able to write y'all again. Over the last 1 1/2 years I have had so much personal things going on that although I hate to admit it, I chose failure over success.
I felt like I was failing at everything I did by the decisions that I had made and it took quite a bit of praying on my part and others that were so kind to pray for me even though I didn't want them to I was able to overcome my newest fear. The fear to succeed.
I had failed for so long that actually succeeding at something scared me to death. I'm currently training for my sixth half marathon and the thought of actually finishing scared me. I know I can run that distance because I have done it five times already.
This time training is becoming so much more than just running to cross that 13.1 finish line. With each stride that I make, I'm slowly letting go of the guilt that I have been carrying for almost two years for the hurt I have caused others and the disappointment that I have in myself.
So the next time that you choose failure over success ask yourself one question. What do you have to lose in succeeding?
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